I know I have an exam tomorrow, and I know I'm going to feel awful after I finish taking it. Somehow I can't get myself to study, though. I'd rather... I don't know. Eat, I guess. Eating seems like a good idea.
Why am I hungry so much?
I went to an informational meeting about Teach For America today. They make it seem like you can get in. But I know the truth: an 11% acceptance rate; about 12 people out of the entire University get in each year.
Applications are exhausting me already, and I haven't even started any of them. There's Americorps, TFA, CTF, NYCTF, DCTF, Peacecorps?, internships abroad...
Yeah, I sound like I'm graduating, don't I? Well that's not official yet, but assuming that I'm going to, I've already started looking into more than a plethora of things, because I realize a BA in English Lit isn't going to leave me particularly employable with the job market as it is right now.
Ugh. I just want something in which I don't have to give 100%. I think that's why I'm passively protesting my own exam tomorrow. I'm sabotaging myself but I can't get any more studying into me. It's just one test. I can still do decently without studying, I think.
Sometimes high expectations fail miserably, and I don't just mean academically, and I don't just mean for myself.
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